Things have been crazy here lately. Companies closing down, other companies on the downturn, my husband going back to school full time, wilder than normal kids and no time for really anything other than the day to day. I felt as if I was drowning. It's up to me to keep this family running during this next year and I'm feeling more than overwhelmed (can we say triple overwhelmed?!) about what I need to do. I wanted to do something I wanted to do instead off always what I must do. Not necessarily in a selfish way but I needed some quiet time alone with Him. I've known for a while. This is my chance to rekindle.
The most current post on this blog was about an upcoming bible study about the Proverbs 31 woman through Good Morning Girls. A woman I so desperately would love to be but is it at all possible? I decided in all about 15 seconds that I was going to do this. I email the author of the blog to join the group. A three month, five day a week study about this 'perfect' woman. Two to three verses per day - how hard can that be? I can surely find 5-10 minutes of quiet time to myself to study and meditate on these verses so I can be an integral part of this group.
I'm all set...printed my study guide, printed the e-book, joined the Facebook discussion group. I am ready to go.
Day one. Monday May 14th. I struggled with finding my quiet time. I really wanted to get up early so I could grab an iced coffee and enjoy this quiet time. I set my alarm and of course the children that never get up early get up 10 minutes before my alarm is due to go off. Failure. Fast forward through the day. I find my 15 minutes at the very end of the day. 11:45pm. I'm wondering what I've gotten myself into. Was this a mistake? Was this not the right time? Everyone else in the group seems so put together. Great...now I'm intimidated but determined.
Day two. Same story. I'm now wondering if day three will pick up. I'll be sure to let you know!
Don't worry about the when right now! Just get in that time with the Lord whenever you can. As it becomes a habit, move it to where you want it to be in the day. And don't feel like a failure cause you didn't do it when you wanted to - you DID it! And that's enough. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm SO glad to have you in the group and I am already enjoying getting to know you better! And my life is far from having everything together. :) I'm pretty sure that this morning I need to go wash a load of towels for the third time, since they're still sitting in my washer from two days ago...and starting to smell like mildew...
Thanks for sharing. You are GREAT. :)
Don't give up! Things like this are always so hard to start- but once you find what works for you it really can't do anything but help.
ReplyDeleteAnd what a great name for a blog you found, I think we are all trying to find hope at times
So, how did it go?
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